1fatdiva

I give Thanks to my Buddies for the voice of reason. You told me that before I start acting DIABETIC, I should check with my doctor. Now why didn’t I think of that? I just got all panicky when my Mom told me about her recent diagnoses so I have been trying to change my eating habits to reflect what the doctor told her to do to get her diabetes under control. And I have been miserable! My Mother’s doctor told her to restrict her Carbs and sugar intake. Well I am a Splenda girl so sugar was no problem. But I live for Carbs. I love extra fiber bread, low fat pudding, brown rice, oatmeal etc. Since talking to my Mom, I have been trying to cut them out of my meal plans and stick with protein and veggies. I just cant do it! Last night I said to heck with everything and went out and had pizza and beer. I haven’t had a beer in 5 years needless to say, this morning I didn’t feel too great. So I set down and read your comments on my The D Word blog. Eureka! I went to the phone and called my doctor’s office and made an appointment to get checked out. In the meantime I will stick with what is working for me and add more exercise. And yes Anj more water. Thank you guys for caring.

I have  been able to loss more weight by restricting my fat intake and getting more fiber than with any other system I have tried. Heck, now days there are so many low fat/ high fiber products in the grocery stores that it is easy to do low fat and still eat all the foods I love. Just recently my Mom called to say she has been diagnosed as a Diabetic. Her doctor told her to restrict her carb intake to no more that 45 per meal. That got me thinking about all the CARBS I load up on every day because they are low in fat and high in fiber. But now the D word has me scared. Maybe I should be more worried about Carbs and less worried about low fat/high fiber. Just when I thought I had a handle on my life… it broke off. What now?           

Oh My Goodness I love CARBOHYDRATES, I do. Once I started using my food journal on a consistent bases, I realized I’m all Carbs. I have tried really really hard to get in more protein, but that just makes me crave more CARBS! Someone told me to try eating eggs. So I did. Well to me scrambled eggs without TOAST is just sinful. So I tried steak with a salad, and that mean old baked potato hopped out of the microwave and onto my plate. I tried skinless chicken breast with salsa. That tasted so good I only had one or was it two flour tortillas on the side. Tried tuna fish, and I could hear that whole wheat extra fiber soft chewy bread calling my name. Cheerios, low fat pudding, rice, crackers, sugar-free yogurt, oatmeal and BREAD. Oh My goodness BREAD!!!! I love CARBS…and if loving CARBS is wrong I dont wanna do right…but I will.

Being a ‘Big Girl’, I know that being an Outee had nothing to do with how your belly button is shaped. I know that it has everything to do with how your clothes fit. It has been a very long time since I have been able to tuck a blouse into my pants or skirts. That’s what Innees do, they tuck everything in so you can see their cute belts. Now, I don’t buy anything that even look like it needs to be tucked in. I buy the proverbial Hang Over Tops. My idea being that if I don’t draw attention to my belly budge no one will know how big it really is. And this has worked for me for years. If I gain weight, I buy bigger tops, if I lose weight, I still wear the same top and declare to the world that I like things to fit loose on me. My wake up call came yesterday at the mall. As I cruised into the Big Girl Shop, the woman coming out, stopped me in my tracks.She was an Innee! Don’t get me wrong she was still a Big Girl at well over 200 lbs, but she had a shape to die for. Her cute ruffled blouse was tucked neatly into her size 20 jeans, showing off her cute belt! This was a V8 moment for me! The difference between being an Innee or an Outee is not total body weight, it’s EXERCISE. This together young lady told me she works out every day, even when she doesn’t feel like it. She takes the stairs whenever she can and parks at the back of the parking lot to get extra walking in. When she is bored and feels like eating , she puts on her music and does the twist. It helps whittle her waistline and its fun. No more excuses, I searched in the back of the closet for one of my old cute belts I never wear. I tried to tucked in my shirt and put on the belt. No I couldn’t make it fit, but I’m going to keep exercising until I can.

99 glasses of water to drink… 99 glasses of water…..

The last time I peepeed this much, I was nine month pregnant and my water broke. But I dont care I am down 2 whole lbs today!!!! YES

Ever time I drink a glass of water it goes right thru no stops along the way, so I know this is just water weight lose but I dont care, I’m having a break thru ( in more ways than one).

Again I am reminded why Buddies are so important. I know I already knew the importance of drinking lots of water but until Anj put that comment on my blog I forgot to do it. I was just focused on cutting calories and doing more exercising. Well let me be the first to testify drinking more water helps you lose weight! Oh wait…I think Anj already said that. Anyway thank you Buddies for not giving up on me. 3 pounds down and 27 more to go. Soooooooooooooo

Take one down and pass it to me,  98 more glasses of water to drink!

At last! I have been stuck at the same weight for 14 whole days, with no relief in sight. I read the other blogs of Buddies who lost 5 lbs or 2 dress sizes and thought to myself, why not me? Yes I did mess up that week I went to visit Mom, but since Thursday I have been extra good. I started using the Food Journal on Friday and it really helped me to see that while I am carefully watching my fat intake, I’m  getting hardly any protein at all. I love fried meat like chicken fried steaks so I am trying very hard to avoid even thinking about stuff like yummy fried catfish or fried chicken. So I have been loading up on too many carbs without even realizing it. Cereal with fruit in the morning, salad for lunch, and veggie delight for dinner. Along with lots of BREAD and low fat snacks. So yesterday I boiled some chicken breast and added  broccoli,  it tasted great. I felt more energized and actually worked out about 30 minutes with my hand weights. I have been so protein poor I havent had energy to do anything. I’m going to look at recipes so I can learn how to cook meat without frying it. Just losing that one pound today tells me I am on the right track. (I hope)

Yes its true, I am F.orever (chasing) A.fter T.hin. I have been running after a new thinner me for most of my life. When I reach 260 lbs., I stopped getting on the scales, so I really dont know how much more I gained. But once my size 24 dresses started fitting like a rubber glove stretched over a watermelon, I knew I was in trouble. That started the chase -Forever After Thin.  I believed that if I could just find the right quick fix, I could get back down to a size 18 in a few weeks. So I tried diet pills, my hair fell out I cried everyday and almost lost my job. After flushing what was left of the pills down the drain, I consoled myself with 1/2 gal of chocolate ripple ice cream and went shopping for bigger dresses. As time went on, I ran after ever fad diet I could find and my weight would go down then back up. Five years ago I got down to my lowest 171, but now I’m back up to 195. Well, guess  I’m still F.A.T., but this time I plan to do it right with a sensible diet and the dreaded exercise. Soon I will be Finally Achieving Thinner.

I was reaching way back in the frig for my last low fat yogurt, and found an unopened bottle of Noni Juice. Last year I went to Jamaica and let the tour guide talk me into buying this bottle of 100% pure Noni Juice. Based on what he said, it is the new wonder diet cure. Now I know I said I would not fall for any more of those lose weight quick diet fads…but it is already in the frig…so I am not going out to buy something I didnt already have…and I hate to waste it if it really would help me… Has anyone else heard of Noni Juice? Is it just a rip off product like so many others? I’m thinking about taking the plunge. I haven’t lost a single pound so far maybe this will quick start my metabolism.

Well, I made it back from visiting the family down in the country. The first day there I awoke to the smell of hickory smoked bacon, and cinnamon french toast. As I dutifully put my packet of Splenda on my bowl of oatmeal, my family started in on their all you can eat breakfast buffet. Everyone kept encouraging me to just try a little of this, or this wont hurt you, you have already loss so much weight you can eat what you want now.

By day two, I knew I was losing it. Everything smelt sooooo good. Mom had cooked all my favorite things fried chicken, fried pies, potato salad… the list goes on and on. I knew I needed help, but none of my family was being helpful at all! What to do? What to do. Then I remembers my friends at BuddySlim. Mary had said her Mom was losing weight by watching the portion size of what she ate, Michaela had given me tips on how to figure out serving sizes and KayK said dont give up.

Yes, I did eat lots of stuff that I knew was bad for me but I only ate small portions and I went for a long walk after every meal and drank lots of water. The bad new is I didnt lose not even one single pound in the whole week that I was there. The good news is I didn’t gain a single pound while I was lost in the twilight zone.  Now I can get back on track, thanks to a little help from my friends.

Okay Buddies, This is my first big test of the new me. IM GOING TO THE COUNTRY TO VISIT MY MOM!!!!!!!! My Mom is the best cook I have ever known. Problem is her favorite ingredients are Bacon Grease, Butter, Sugar, and white flour.

 She fries everything. I love her to death, but for one whole week I will try to just say No. There is nothing to do, no place to go. So we grew up hanging around the kitchen, cooking and eating. I will not have access to my computer so I guess I’m going COLD TURKEY on this one! See you in one week.